Saturday, December 11, 2010


ahh finally...I felt so relief after 3 weeks without week will be my 5th week of clinical posting... another 8 hectic weeks to go...

and finally, I watched one of the most greatest Japanese drama that makes everyone cried when watching it.. So dramatic..!!!!
I watched one of the episodes 2 years ago but I wouldn't dare to watch more because I know that I will cry for sure... & of course I cried for each episode..It's a true story about a girl with have a rare disease, the "spinocerebellar degeneration disease", common among Japanese age 10-20 yo.. I guess the Minamata incidence has got something to do with this disease..

The Ikeuchi family in the drama

Anyway, here are some of the verses from the drama from each episode, & some are sincere words written by the late Aya Kito...

1. My life is like a flower that hasn’t bloomed yet,
From the start of this youth,
I want to treasure it and have no regrets.

2. Okasan, in my heart,
I know I can always trust you.
From this point forward, I leave it to you.
I’m sorry for always making you worry

3. This disease, why did it choose me?
Fate, it can’t be put into words.

4. I want to make a time machine and go back in time.
If it wasn’t for this disease, not only I could enjoy falling in love but I also wouldn’t have to rely on anyone and live by myself.
++the view I see now is the same as yesterday,
the street I walk on is still the same.
But my whole world has changed
I may not be able to smile like I always do
Who I was up until yesterday, will never show up again.

5. I really don’t want to say things such as ,
“I want to go back to how things were before”.
I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on.
++ It’s fine if I’m in pain all by myself.
In the blue sky, the white clouds float around,
And it’s really pretty to look at.

6. Eventhough I have been hurt before by those heartless glances,
This also helped me to understand that around me, there still exist some gentle glances.
Therefore I definitely won’t run away. That’s what I’ll do. Definitely, always.

7. The place where I am…
Even I do not belong here anymore, even if it’s like that, I still want to stay here. Because this is the place where I am.
To be able to be seen as an equal by my friends, I’m really thankful.

8. If you look up at the sky after falling down the blue sky today is alos stretching limitlessly and smiles ta me….I’m alive.

^_^ you are always encouraging me,
You listen to me when I say the things that I can’t say to others.
On the path to move forward, you make me happy.
You’re by my side.
When I’m feeling depressed, you always keep me company.
Thank you, Sho_kun.
Even if I want to return to the past, I can’t go back in time.
Therefore, for me, how I am right now, I want to like how I am now.
That’s what I think.
To be able to smile and tell you this, I have at least, cried one litre of tears.

9. Living for the moment.
People shouldn’t dwell on the past. It’s enough to try your best in all that you’re doing now.
To stop my pace, and live in the present,
Even though there will be a day, that I will lose it, isn’t it great that I could pass on a dream that I had to give up?

10. ^_^ The other side of suffering, by Ikeuchi Aya…
Everyone feels the pain.
But surely, after suffering satisfaction will arrive.
Even with sports, studying or other ordeals.
With life, it’s like that for everyone.
If we can beat the pain, on the other side,
a rainbow of happiness awaits us.
That will definitely become a treasure.
Let’s believe in that.

^_^ Step by step…
When my existence seems to disappear,
I will look for the place where I can do the best I can.
From now on, I’ll deliberate slowly.
I won’t be impatient.
I won’t be greedy.
I won’t give up.
Because everyone takes things step by step.

11. Far away, to a place where there are no more tears.
Whatever your walk of life is, you live here with a little more warmth in your heart, and a little more courage to face another day.
Next time you see your loved one, tell them how special they are. Next time you meet a friend, thank them for always being there for you.
Life is what you can make of it. Treasure it.

The late Kito Aya at her special school

Friday, November 19, 2010

I am a student for the rest of my life..

Today is the end of the 1st week of my final (probably) clinical-posting...This is the 5th hospital I've been posted to, & to me it is the hardest of all bcoz it's a big hospital & located within one of the polluted place in Klang Valley.. Oh God, the are too many patients come to the physiotherapy department everyday. Finally I'm in my final year but a physiotherapist is always a student no matter how long you have been working, no matter how much experience you already have because there were too many things that you need & HAVE to know in order to treat the patients. Besides, the researchers always come up with new ways to make the treatment better, & we have to get update with those new info. It's not a profession that we can easily play around without treating the patients easily. I have to admit that I'm really glad to become one of them. We treat patients after the doctors have done their duties to the them @ treat those who do not need any medications but only management & exercises prescribed by us can help them.
My dad always complained to me that why do I have to choose to become a physiotherapist instead of becoming a doctor, well, in the beginning. It did hurt my feelings sometimes but I do know that he was only joking. I can take that joke because my dad's occupation is not within the science stream but what makes me really pissed of is when there's a few people who are in the health science & medical stream look down on our course & this profession. ooooo!!!!! I wished that they will be sorry for doing that!! anyway, peace, no war!

While I was searching for the exact population in the Klang Valley, I ended up with the article about "10 most polluted place on planet earth". Funny how I ended up here, maybe bcoz the spelling are close (population=polluted.). Down here are only a few of them.
Two girls walk to school amid smoky skies in La Oroya, Peru, in this September 2003 photo. The congested mining town of 35,000 nestled high in the Andes was recently added to the Blacksmith Institute's list of the ten most polluted places in the world.

 A cemetery of radioactive vehicles is seen near Ukraine's Chernobyl nuclear power plant in this November 10, 2000 photo. More than 1,300 Soviet military helicopters, buses, bulldozers, and other equipment were used and contaminated while responding to the April 26, 1986 nuclear accident at Chernobyl.
The disaster's residual effects and its potential for future environmental and health damage has landed Chernobyl on the New York-based Blacksmith Institute's 2007 list of the ten most polluted sites.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

A Scandal

a scandal happened early in the morning at my place??
nahh!! I was watching a korean drama this morning, called the 'Sungkyunkwan Scandal'..
I really like this drama, although I don't really like to watch Kdrama..well, the truth is I like the OST of this drama, sang by JYJ, "Found you".. A nice song title for those who are searching for the right to love..

You guys may found out that it's hard for me to talk about Malay drama in my blog..I don't know why but it's hard for me to like a Malay drama with the same plot (focus more on love triangle & taking over a company), except for the movies in Cerekarama..I know this is kind of a sensitive issue but day by day I am bored with it..
Hope that there'll be more great Malay drama@movies with a nice plot & not just focusing on a relationship..

Bye bye kampung!!!

This is my 1st time writing a post for my own blog..b4 this I don't really don't wanna create a blog because I don't have much time for cyber world..previously I hate to chat, & even forgot the password for my own 'Friendster' account..but I do have time for facebook never the less, so I thought why can't I have time for blog..
Once I read Joel Neoh's blog & he had posted smthing about the goodness of blog, since then I thought of having one, & to me I want to create a blog in order to write the things that happen in my daily life, like jotting it down in a piece of paper / a diary.. To me a blog let me express my feelings & thoughts more compared to facebook..But still, my sister can read my posts & criticize them, like she used to when a had a diary 10 years back..^_^..aahh.. who cares about that anymore..

"Trusting a person have a problem with time line too"..This is the 1st time I ever heard about this, & I got it from a japanese drama that I watched for 2 days. I like the sentences because I have a problem in trusting an acquaintance, & took a long time to really trust him/her, but still not a 100%..
Trusting a person have a problem with time line too..well, once decided to trust a person, you must keep trusting him/her till the end. That's the way of trusting others..
Hope to keep that in my mind till the end of my life.. <3 <3 <3 

Ahh! one more thing..I put the title bye2 kampung because I'm going back to KL for my practical in another 1 & half an hour..I'm gonna miss my kampung!!! ~_~