Gosenshi

Title: Gosenshi (Music Sheets)
Author: hidaka_yuushi
Rating : G
Length : One shot
Summary : They are Dong Bang Shin Ki. They are just like the five lines making up the music sheets, seemingly unconnected but in reality they are bound tight together to each other

This story is inspired from the recent interview where Yoochun had mentioned that this song reminded him of Junsu's smile, and from another interview in Japan where the person commented that the five of them are just like the five lines in the music sheet. When I read the lyrics, I feel that the words simply just describe the boys, especially right now, when everything seems like a mess.

Music sheet (GOSENSHI)

Dong Bang Shin Ki is a set of music sheets. 5 sets of separated different lines, seems to be unconnected to each other but bounded together nonetheless… and nothing else can change that.

Hana no iro kaze ni yurete
Bokura ni melody kureru you ni
Hikouki gumo nagame nagara
Gosenshi no youna, kono michi aruiteku
Utagoe mo nagareteru

The colors of the flowers sway to the wind
Giving to us its melody
While watching the trail of vapor from an airplane
We walk this path like a music sheet
With our singing voices flowing

Yunho is the bottom line of the Gosenshi. The leader, the base and the foundation of the band whom anyone can rely on, whether to share joy, anger or sadness. The one who bear everything the greatest and the one who had swallowed his tears in silence the most. He is the one whom everyone needs to constantly remember to dote back upon… It is always too easy to forget that he is as fragile as the rest of them, but well, that was why Jaejoong is there, to make sure each of the members received equal amount of love and attention from each other.

Jaejoong is the next in line. As the caretaker of the group, he in another much needed foundation in ensuring them staying upright and strong. Taking care of the group in the opposite way of Yunho, trough his naggings, through his cooking, through his worrying, or even through his dorkiness, his unique personality is something that DBSK certainly can’t live without. It just does not seem right for a family without the ‘Umma’ of the band, no matter how much the other man despises the title. While at one end, he needs the strong shoulder of the band leader to fall upon when everything is just too great to handle on his own, at the other end the rest of his dongsaengs are the one who fire up his dreams and his hopes. Junsu’s laughter, Yoochun’s hugs and Changmin’s grins are the ones that remind him to always be strong to protect them, the babies of the groups.

Changmin is the level-headed magnae in the group. Staying as the middle of the line, he pulls his hyungs back to the earth when all four of them start to fly out of this earth. As the same time, he is the one who is always being doted on, never get left out in anything that the rest of the members do despite what it looked like on screen. That is why he is in the middle… so that he will still be cradled and babied by the rest of his hyungs, because no matter how snarky, bossy, and evil he is, he is still the magnae dongsaeng in Dong Bang family.

Second from the top is the poet and the dreamer of the family, Yoochunnie. Easy to showcase his feelings and moods to the whole world and sometimes even let his temper loose wildly, most of the time he still takes the comfort of not being at the spotlight, letting Yunho, Junsu or Jaejoong hogging all the attention themselves while he shields himself behind them. He relies on the four others to carry him and his dreams forward. Sometimes he lets his childishness ran wild when he is with Junsu, his gentleness embraces Jaejoong when the older man is sharing his pains with him, his thoughtfulness comes forward when Yunho just can’t hide his stress and burden inside and his tenderness shows when he welcomes Changmin into one of his hugs, ones that Changmin could tolerate.

The top of the line is Junsu, the one who bathes under the spotlight the most and the one who relishes in it… even looks forward for it, although unconsciously. He captures attentions through his smile, his voice, his gags, his laughter…and he sweeps the rest of the members up together with him, bringing joys and laughter to the other four, especially the magnae ‘Changminnie’ and leader-sshi ‘Yunnie’ who often presents their serious, official sides to rest of the world. He hates showing his weakness, preferring to hide until he finds back his shining brightness. But the rest of the members, instead of letting him struggle alone, they dig him out of his shell and help him to shed his bad mood and found back his happiness, they take turn to put smiles on that dolphin face again.

Sukoshi hayai hansode mo shibafu no kouen nara
Sora wo kakeru shounen ni bokura wo kaesu kara

When in short-sleeves and in a lawn of a park
We're brought back as boys who soar through the sky

Their first memory of each other was when they were still the geeky, naïve, young trainee boys with weird hairstyle, baggy clothes and shy smiles. From the hesitant grins thrown at each other when they had no choice but to entrust each other with the precious dreams that each of them held, to the fierce supporting hugs and tight hand-holds when they finally soared up to be the biggest star of ASIA.

Hora yoso ni shita tsuki ni dareka ga hashiridasu to
Sugu oikakete yuku yo otona no furi shite te mo dame sa
Hey, if someone starts running towards some place underneath the moon
Go and chase it right away; it's something that adults are hopeless with

Their dreams seemed impossible and too far-fetched.

Becoming an Asia Star, climbing up from the bottom again in Japan to hold their concert in Budoukan, Winning consecutive first times in Oricon chart, Winning the best album in Korea despite their long absence, having a concert in Tokyo Dome, receiving so much love from their biggest fanclub in the world…

But they never give up from holding on to any kinds of dream, no matter how impossible it may look.. because they know that they are never alone… they always have five of them no matter what happen.

And look! Their impossible dreams had one by one came true…

Kuchizusamu uta mo itsuka
Kimochi wa hitotsu ni kasanari au
Asu no kaze ni fukare nagara
Gosenshi no youna, kono michi aruiteku
Aozora mo tsuzuiteru

Someday along with this song that we've been humming
Our feelings would pile-up into one
And while tomorrow's wind blows
We walk this path like a music sheet
With the blue sky continuing to stretch on
Kumo wa katachi kawattemo kumo ni kawari nakute
Sore wa ikiru boku tachi to doko ka niteiru yo ne

Even if the clouds change shape or even if the clouds don't and stay that way
Between that and us who carry on living, we would be somewhat alike, right?

Kitto tsurai toki soba de isshou ni nageku yori mo
Zutto matte ite kureru dare yori boku no mikata da yo ne

More than the ones with me during those truly painful moments and those that joined me in sadness,
Those that were always waiting for me, who else other than them could all the more be my friends?

They know… that no matter what had, is or will happen, at the end of the road, the five of them will still be there at the end. No matter who left them in sadness, or joined them in happiness, or commenting, praising, criticizing on their decisions, trying to understand them better, analyzing them, advising them… all of those don’t matter… as the one that will be at the end will still be the five of them, holding on and supporting each other.

Arigatou, kimi ni aete
Norikoeru tsuyosa oboete yuku
Hitori jyanaku hitori hitori
Gosenshi no youna, kono michi aruiteku
Tonari ni wa kimi ga iru

I'm thankful, because I met you
I continue remembering the power to succeed
We're not all alone, just one at a time
We walk this path like a music sheet
And you are by my side

Even if the rest of the world doubts them right now, even if they look like they are on different sides, even if they look like they are tearing apart, being divided, alone… beyond the sight of the unknowing people, the invisible thread that bounded them together is still as strong as ever. Their faith is unwavering on each other because they believe that the others are always on their sides.

Kitto jyu nengo nante dare ni mo wakaranakute
Demo atsumareba sugo ni hansode no shounen ni nareru

Without doubt, even after 10 years still, nobody would understand
But if we come together immediately we'll be used to becoming boys in short sleeves (again)

And DBSK is a place that they can always call home, where they can shed their mask of lies, of smiles, of happiness, of politeness and just free their soul. It’s where they can relieve their childishness, genuine laughter, stupidity… and be free.

Hana no iro kaze ni yurete
Bokura ni melody kureru you ni
Hikouki gumo nagame nagara
Gosenshi no youna, kono michi aruiteku

The colors of the flowers sway to the wind
Giving to us its melody
While watching the trail of vapor from an airplane
We walk this path like a music sheet

Kata ame na uta mo itsuka
Kimochi wa hitotsu ni kasanari au
Asu no kaze ni fukare nagara
Gosenshi no youna, kono michi aruiteku
Aozora mo tsuzuiteru

Someday even this song, like candy,
Our feelings would harden into one
And while tomorrow's wind blows
We walk this path like a music sheet
With the blue sky continuing to stretch on
Tonari ni wa kimi ga iru
Utagoe mo nagareteru

You are by my side
With our singing voices flowing

 As long as they have each other, their songs will never be gone.